IC INBOX - PHANRIFT

[founderinglight]

one for sorrow, two for mirth
three for marriage, four for birth
five for the truth and six for lying
seven for sickness, eight for dying
nine for silver, ten for gold
eleven for a secret that shall never be told
twelve for the moon, thirteen for the sky
fourteen for the accursed unable to die
and fifteen for my heart's last desire
a new day's dawn, reborn in fire



Izunia Lucis Caelum
Keystone Station Room #11
Network @elevencrows

Comments

[motherfucking_ghost]

no im clarifying cuz you said if i wanna be mad at u or whatever then u cant fix me but u never could thats the point theres no fixing there never was

[founderinglight]

...I confess I still don't understand entirely, but, okay.

[motherfucking_ghost]

the point fuck you holy fuck ok the point you dumbass the point is what u said means a possiblty of fixing like if something changed then u could fix me r smth but that was never the case n never will be nothing that culd possibly change could allow you 2 fix me if i was ur bff u still couldnt

[founderinglight]

...I think you're reading too much into something I said while literally reaching the limit of my patience.

[motherfucking_ghost]

i guess i fucking am jfc

[founderinglight]

If I hurt you by it, I'm sorry.

[motherfucking_ghost]

you dont even no what 2b sorry for

[founderinglight]

[This reply comes a few minutes later - ]

No, I don't.

But it obviously bothered you if you were willing to contact me about it.

[motherfucking_ghost]

i was mad bc you want to fix me like who tf says that ur not gonna pop open my head n fiddle w wired dude why u think i need fixed

[founderinglight]

I was frustrated with you. Am, somewhat continually, frustrated with you.

Even the thing people think are easy solutions aren't really. I know that better than anyone.

[motherfucking_ghost]

wtf does that mean

[founderinglight]

...Do you really want the full explanation? It's rather long.

[motherfucking_ghost]

im asking wtf ur talking abt bc it sounds like were talking diff things

[founderinglight]

Well, I've already rather disavowed understanding exactly what you're talking about, haven't I?

The short version - and you can verify this with Junpei - is that shortly after Ardyn and the rest arrived here, I did in fact take a metaphorical wrench to my own brain sockets. It isn't an easy fix-all solution; it just gave me a starting point.

[motherfucking_ghost]

idk what that means

[founderinglight]

I attempted to brute-force my own severe and complex mental health issues via psychically beating the shit out of a part of my own cognition, I don't know how much more simply I can explain it.

[motherfucking_ghost]

ok

[founderinglight]

... It's magic bullshit used as a very aggressive form of therapy.

[IS THAT MORE ON THE LEVEL CHURCH.]

[motherfucking_ghost]

ok so

[founderinglight]

So?

[motherfucking_ghost]

so thats what u want 2 do 2 me or what

[founderinglight]

No??? If you want to do so I'll point you in the right direction, but it's not something undertaken lightly and it's something you would have to decide for yourself.

You're the one who brought up "you're nuts and need serious help" first, if you recall. This is me telling you that I already have, as much as I am able.

[motherfucking_ghost]

u r nuts n need srs help but maybe literally fistfighting ur brain isnt the right way but wtf does that have 2 do with you wanting to fix me

[founderinglight]

Just... Ugh. NeverMIND.

[motherfucking_ghost]

no wtf is ur deal its always gotta be about you somehow i didnt ask abt your shitfuck therapy im telling u that us aying that shit is not fine